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CHANGE OF BLOG URL. RELINK PLEASE!

2010-10-26T02:22:00.004+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS!
PLEASE NOTE THAT I HAVE CHANGED MY BLOG TO,
Http://c-omfortablynumb.blogspot.com
PLEASE RELINK!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

NOTICE: Email changed.

2010-10-23T17:32:00.008+08:00

HEY PEEPS!

Please note that i've changed my email to,
shanelyeo@hotmail.com .
New blog will be up next.
Do look out for updates!:D

& Currently,
Imma at Jiefu house now with Brother and Zong En.
We came all the way here to try his new toy.
Guitar Hero Warriors of rock.

Brother.

Jiefu.

Zong En.
Don't blame him, he's a little shy. :D

Rock enough bo? HAHAH~
:D

K, Tata~

Rindu sangat D:

2010-10-21T02:11:00.003+08:00

Blogger Image upload is under maintenance.
So no photos for today. :]
Went Amk hub to meet up with Jia min (Laopo)
Had pepper lunch as dinner.
Saw Valerie :D
Shop around.
Brought one shirt and one belt.
Lefted amk and went to Amk ave 10 blk 527 to drink with her and her dad.
Home sweet home @ 10.

Am currently am webcaming with aku dar. :D
Going off to meet my tortoise in lalaland soon.
Tata~

Aku merindukanmu sangat!

Cepat keluar.

Saya perlu anda banyak.

Lain menangis malam diriku tidur tanpa anda.

Misses.

2010-10-18T21:45:00.006+08:00

Overdue photos

There is more, but uploading it in blogging seems to take forever ._.

So check out for updates @ facebook.

I will be updating more on facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/shanel.qian

Anyway, went shopping with mum today at Amk hub.

Ah kent joined us.

Brought quite a lot of stuffs.

Thanks mummy.!♥

Headed home early as mum health is not as good as last time anymore.

So Home Sweet Home.!

Tomorrow gonna start my reporting all over again.

1Year

T.T

Should be going for movie after that.

So nights earthlings!:D

[P.S: Going mad missing you]

My 17 years precious,

JUNE TAN HUI YAN

I just wanna tell you, THANK YOU for always being here for me. :D

SRBN'S FOREVER

2010-10-18T03:43:00.008+08:00

TORTOISE/PENGUIN/LUO HAN/OCTOPUS

YOU THIS STUPID!

YOU & YOUR STUPID MOUTH!

Every time when i am suppose to say goodbye to you,

You will be one step faster than me.

I don't mind for the other times, but not this time!

It just too much for me to take.

Cause you meant so much to me.

& i mean, SO much.

I really miss you.

& for this i also meant so much.

Wondering how are you doing?

Are you missing me like how much i miss you?

Did you think of me?

Did you finish your food? Or are you on diet?

Is your health alright? How's your asthma?

Are you behaving?

All our promises, you remember?

Is everything going well?

And so much...

I'm so dead worry about you D:

ImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyou

ImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyou ImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyou

ImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyou

I MISS YOU.

I will never forget all our promises.

I will not change.

I will be right here waiting, no matter what.

Nothing can change my mind.

I will wait,

Wait for you to come out cause you owe me so much.

Please do really take very very good care of yourself k.

-♥

New start.

2010-10-15T22:12:00.008+08:00

HELLO PEEEPOOOS!

(^.^)

Finally out of that torturing place.

Pheww*

Here's something i really wish to share with everyone.

All these is thoughts & feeling of mine,

So I don't expect you to go with me all the way till the end.

For those who didn't know where did i went to this 4months and 2weeks,

I'm in prison. Changi Woman Prison.

I am not being proud.

There's nothing to feel proud of. In fact i felt embarrass, so embarrass.

2nd of June 2010.

That's the last day that i saw the complete sun.

I never expect that will be my last day seeing buses, taxi, trains, friends, those things & people we will normally see in our daily lives and last but not least, my love ones.

Everything in this world we are facing everyday, i am taking it for granted.

& When i realise that, i am taking my first step into my worst nightmare.

Taking shower with cold water, sleeping without fan, sleeping without bed, sleeping without pillow(Fyi, they gave 1 blanket, so during night time you can only choose either to use the blanket as pillow or blanket. So its either one), living without mirror (we can only see small reflections on the tap.), living without phone, eating with no chopsticks, living without knowing what time is it exactly, etc..

Living in a total different environment with a total different style of living.

So right now at this point of time, i think of my bed, my phone, my fan, my pillow, my house water heater and all the things that i always had when i am outside. Who will feel comfortable when you are not under your own shelter? Who will feel comfortable when you don't have your own pillow with your own smell? Who will feel comfortable when you are staying at a place with so many strangers?

At this point of time, I think of my family, siblings & my son

Living in a room combine with a toilet bowl & there is no walls to separate the place you sleep and the toilet. 3/4 is the place you sleep, eat and the left over part is place where you do all your business and bath.

Who will feel comfortable sleeping in a place that is combined with a toilet?

At this point of time, I think of my room, my house.

Living in a place where water is limited.

Morning bath time (20mins),

Afternoon after-lunch water time(10mins) and Evening bath time(20mins).

Storing water in bucket. & those waters is for drinking, washing of hands or any washing you need to do if water is not on.

At this point of time, i think of my house bathroom.

The warm water, the unlimited water and time i have to take my shower.

Living with 2 bar of soap, 1 toothpaste which must last for a month. & each of the soap is not even a palm size. If you finish before 15th of that month, that's it. Bath without soap till 15th.

At this point of time, i thought of my shampoo, facial foam, my colgate.

So now look & scroll up if you can't remember, At all of my At this point of time, All those things is things we use & is always here in our daily life.

& for this 17 years of my life, i was never lack of all that. Never.

& that is why when we get so use to all these,

our thinking will be "Ah, finish already mummy will buy".

"Ah, today don't go home never mind lah".

But who knows?

Who knows what will happen next?

There's so much things for us to realise, for us to learn, for us to explore and its for us to fully enjoy & cherish every single minute and second of it cause Life's just too short,

there's no time to waste.

Cause it's always too late to regret.

2010-07-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hello peoples.

Jasmine is here to help YeoXiaoQian to update her blog.

Xiaoqian ask me to tell all her friends dont worry about her.

She is finee inside. And she will take good care of herself.

Same goes to all of you Ok?

Do tag her blog more to keep her blog alive.

Let's pray hard for her to come out in 4months time or earlier Ok?

Pray hard that everything is fine inside there.

Anything you all wanna know can just ask me.

Tag my blog,

http://www.miserable-illusionlove.blogspot.com

If your wanna write letter to her let me know and i will tell your th address Ok?

Lets wait for th New Xiaoqian to be released Ok?

And!! She say she loves you all sooo much. (:

Dar!

I miss you soo much!

Heres your greetings.

*Squash squash Muack* *Stay with me*

"Dar Morning happy breakfast, sayang dia, rindu dia,

You are always in my heart, in my mind and in my prayers.

You are my one and only precious Dar in this world.

I wont forget The Dar's Couple.

ILOVEYOUSOMUCH!

MuackMuackMuack!

Rindu Sekali~"

"Dar goodnight, sweetdreams. sayang dia, rindu dia,
You are always in my heart, in my mind and in my prayers.
You are my one and only precious Dar in this world.
I wont forget The Dar's Couple.
ILOVEYOUSOMUCH!
MuackMuackMuack!"

I will never forget all our promises and memories.

Behave inside and i will be waiting for you.

Hope I can recieve your letter soon.

MYSYLY!

2010-06-01T11:06:00.002+08:00

Extra post like how extra i felt i am.

Left out.
FML.
Shyt that.
This frigging feeling is gonna spoil my mood for the entire day. _l_

By choosing this way i wanted to?
Fcuk NO OKAY.
I'm being pushed to the edge by YOU YOU YOU YOU!
What is it that i did?
Maybe i don't notice it myself because i don't feel home @ ALL!
What's happiness?
Who KNOWS? & WHO UNDERSTAND THE FEELING OF BEING LEFT OUT?
OH _l_.
In life, we are a part, a family.
But in me, WE ARE APART.

Say i am immature.
Say i don't know how to think.
Go ahead.
Yeah.
To you guys i am like that.
Age gap?
I don't take that as a reasons.
All this while,
I tried to be convicing.
Never wanting to think about it.
How i wish i can just dissapear in this space, forgetting all these.
Almost done with saying harsh words.
Pardon me people.

I guess i need to get myself numb.
Never will you guys (Family) see that useless, immature xiaoqian anymore.
Anything involve with you guys, will never include me.
& i guess never will be.
Nothing in your eyes.

Realistic

2010-06-01T10:08:00.003+08:00

Oh hi.
Yesterday woke up @ 5 pm (>.<) Prepare ourself and headed down to block 1. No one was there (T_T) Sat there and chatted with dearest. Walked to Kovan ice pool.Saw Ah hao there.After was wanting to go coffee shop for supper.All closed.So decided to have mac.Saw Kah liang outside.So we went mac together. Hommy @ 10.30pm. Watched bruce lee movie online. Waaaa-taaaaaaa~ Halfway through, i went into my dreamland :x Luckily i didn't dream of Bruce Lee. (._.) One friend of mine. Practically 9 years of friends, She spelled my name so cooly like this, YES XIAO QIAN. Stil in CAPS somemore oh. So she gonna be TAS YU HUAN.
Acutally don't wanna blog de. All because of TAS YU HUAN lor! (^^)

2010-05-31T06:55:00.005+08:00

Photos for today (^.^)

Abg.

Son.

Went block 1 in the noon.

Eat.Play.Camwhore.

Homed @ 7plus to fetch didi.

Went Pasir ris fishing pond.

Till 5.45am > Home sweet home.

Lazy to post much naozx.

It's 7.06am and i am still using laptop.

Gotta catch some sleep.

Soooo...

Lastly,

I am in loooooove with Justin Bieber!

He is so shuai! HANDSOMEHOTCOOL!

I bet his smile melts every girls.

Baby baby baby ohhhhhhhh~

Justin Bieber ROCKS.

Free willy

2010-05-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

Just watched this show just now @ home.
A very touching show.
*Tumbs up.

Plot

The film begin with a pod of Orcas swimming near the coastline of the Pacific Northwest. Unfortunately, this family of Orca is tracked down by a large group of whalers, and a single orca gets caught in their net. Unable to save him, his family leaves him behind, and he is taken away to a local amusement park.
Sometime later, Jesse, a young boy who has been on the run since he was abandoned by his mother six years before, gets caught by the police for stealing food and vandalizing a theme park along with a group member of three other abandoned kids (who are not caught). However, his social worker Dwight helps him avoid legal consequences, provided he cleans up the mess at the park. While there, Jesse befriends Willy, the Orca that was caught earlier and has a collapsed dorsal fin. He teaches him behaviors, something the trainer, Rae Lindley, had failed to do. Over time, Jesse and Willy become the best of friends, and Jesse earns a long-term job at the marina while learning to live with his new and supportive foster parents, Glen and Annie Greenwood.
The owner of the amusement park, Dial (Michael Ironside) sees the talent Jesse and Willy have together, and makes large plans to host "The Willy Show" in hopes of boosting sales and making money for himself. On the day of the first performance, everyone is set to begin, but Willy comes down with stage fright due to the children banging constantly on his underwater observation area. Willy scares them off by smashing against the tank, unintentionally damaging it. Jesse is devastated, but notices Willy's family in the ocean. Later, while at the tank, Jesse notices Dial's assistant Wade (Richard Riehle) and other men sneaking into the underwater observation area and damage the tank enough that the water will gradually leak out in an effort to kill Willy. It is surmised that Dial is interested in collecting the insurance money, since he has a $1,000,000 life insurance plan on Willy.
Thus, Jesse, Haida shaman Randolph Johnson (August Schellenberg) and Rae begin plans to release the Orca. They use equipment at the park to load Willy onto a trailer, and Jesse and Randolph "borrow" Glen's truck to tote Willy to the ocean. They try to stick to back roads to keep from being spotted with a gigantic Orca, and eventually get stuck on a back road. Wade meanwhile notifies Dial that the Orca is missing, and begin a search to find Willy.
Jesse must admit that he needs help, and calls his foster parents using a CB-Radio located in the truck they took. Annie and Glen show up and are able to help free the truck, and continue on to the marina they are headed to, in order to release Willy. Dial knows where they are likely headed, and when they show up, he, Wade and his henchmen are blocking the gate into the marina. Glen charges at them full speed in the truck, forcing the henchmen to move right before Willy's ride plows through the gate to the marina. Glen quickly turns the truck around and backs up Willy into the water, flooding his truck in the process.
Willy is finally released into the water, but Dial and his goons have a backup plan for the death of Willy. The whaling company shows up in the water, releasing nets into the water to trap Willy in the marina and succeed. Jesse has one last chance. He leads Willy to an area where if Willy would just jump, he would be free. Amidst everyone's prayers, Willy makes the jump, to the amazement of all his friends, and is free to return to his family. The film ends with the happy trainers and newly formed family watching Willy swim away.

Anyone owns free willy 2 dvd?
:x
Or any website to intro for me to watch free willy 2?

Destiny

2010-05-20T23:35:00.004+08:00

Today @ block 1.

The 3D Specs inside today newspaper.
Ultimate cool.

18May10. @ Maplewood park.

19May10. @ the vet.

Didi always get excited when we reached the vet.

Makes me goes questioning him, "Son we are in the vet, why are you getting excited?" x.x

Cost me 72 bucks that day in the vet. $$$flyy.

They shaved his tail. BOTAK. So funny. Look like pig tail. :x

17May10. Lunch @ Kovan Pizza Hut.

That's all for nao.

Off for show. Tata~

2010-05-17T11:52:00.005+08:00

15May10, Satuday.

Sabushi @ hougang mall.

Bibi just put it down for a few secs and it turn to this colour.

Imagine how hot the boiling water is?

Fried fish.

The BEST

After lunch went Kovan Ice Pool.

Then home-sweet-home.

16May10, Sunday.

Went godma house for awhile.

After that went pasir ris for prawning.

All of us got drenched.

Cooooooold~

Cabbed home and had a hot bath.

& up with slight fever in the night.

No photos.

Overdued photos.

I hate this feeling >:

2010-05-14T01:30:00.002+08:00

Will anyone believe me if i say it out?

I saw it with my own eyes! >:

Yes, my own eyes.

Felt so 无助 @ that moment.

Things that i can't interfere, & even if i can, from where should i start?

Wanting to stop yet i have to worry about people feelings.

Or maybe i will just ruin everything even earlier.

I need advise.

Kor, come back soon will you? >:

Unearth feeling

2010-05-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

It's still pool everyday!
No doubt!
Ohhaha.

Going overseas soon with bibi mother-side family sooon.
Weeee haaaa~
So looking forward to it.

Am still looking for a suitable job.
S-u-i-t-a-b-l-e.
Tssssssssk*

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Memories is endless

2010-05-07T11:04:00.008+08:00

Subway times

Stupid, lovely, funny, crazy, di siao siao and memorable times

Okay, i forgot whose nose hole is this.

But according to the photo above it should be mine.

Anyway, who would be so free to go take people nose hole?!

Hee, Remember this photo not huan? HAHAHAH. Plaza Singapura with black black things on your nose. LOL! Damn ps de.

Here to clarify something.

Ah huan ah,

I am not avoiding you luh.

Just don't know how to face you after so many things.

Life there is always up and down.

For friendship i think its the same.

After so many bad stuffs,

All of us did grow up and learn right?

There are bound to be some unhappiness in everything.

I miss our past.

But yah, after so many things, we all know we can't be that close anymore.

9 years of friendship already.

Cannot say separate jiu separate de mah.

So we will still be friends right?

Just hope all of us can just let those past behind us.

& move foward.

Though no need to be always together,

But sometimes must ask me out mah.

zz,

I also don't wanna rot in one place. :x

Hehe, you should know what i mean. Shhhhh.

Hope i did remove that unease thingy in your heart.

Friends forever!

I don't like you!

2010-05-06T10:56:00.003+08:00

The one that know me the most became someone whom don't seems to understand me.

The one that hurt you with just a single word, is the one whom you love/care a lot.

In my return of love/care, it's that fucking word.

Darnit.

You just don't understand that kind of disappointment/sadness i feel.

Fuck you

2010-05-02T11:08:00.002+08:00

Fuck fuck fuck fuck YOU.

わたしは、あなたが大嫌いですふしだらな女.

Want to be love by you,

2010-04-30T23:40:00.008+08:00

Am so boring naozx.
Went to causeway point in the noon for interview.
Filled the application form and came back.
I WANT that job. (>.<)
I saw laopo in the uni and name tag.
So CooOOOl~
I want I want I want!
Hope i can get their call tomorrow.

,

,

,

I hate going out.
Cause everywhere also can see people using iPhone.
Goshhhhhhhhhh~
So tempting.
But heh,
I am going to get one real sooooon <:
*Should i wait for 4GS to arrive or just get a 3GS?!
4GS will arrive on June if i am not wrong.
Arghhh, so unbearable.

,

,

,

It has been so long since i said i wanna bring my laptop for servicing.
& It's taking me daysmonthsyears.
Kept dragging cause i can't imagine a day w/o my lappy >:
Damn cui.
The bar below keep flickering.
Irritaing shitzx.

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& it seems so hard.

So wrong

2010-04-30T02:17:00.007+08:00

Overdued photos

Lost th passion to blog >:

Tata.

Rest In Peace my dearest girl.

2010-04-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

Blame me,
For not being a responsible owner.
I'm sorry my pretty girl.
Rest In Peace.
Mummy loves you always.

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I can't sleep nao.
& i am working at 11.30am tomorrow. (>.<)
I am feeling so terrible.
First is Joyce than Tiny than Yi Shuo.
Oh shit me.
I swear i won't buy any pet from nao on.
Until i have the time, money and the heart to commit to it.
I need sleeping pills.
Anyone?

All the best to you

2010-04-22T09:57:00.003+08:00

Hello hello!

Just a short post for nao cause imma need to rush to hq then for interview.

& i am soooooo HAPPY

Cause i have got 3 interview today.

Wooohooo.

But gotta really decided which one i really wants.

Cause all i likeeeee!

(>.<)

Okay,

Off for my Mee siam then to HQ.

TATA~

& please wish me good luck! :D

Blah Blah Blah

2010-04-19T13:03:00.002+08:00

Some random post.

Imma so bored!

Suddenly miss my short and coloured hair a lot >:

Tsk*

Okay nah,

Going bath naozx.

Later maybe going hospital visit ray again.

BB!

Delete you

2010-04-19T11:23:00.004+08:00

Happy belated 14 birthday to Byron!

Sorry peeps,

Was busy with many stuffs so never upload this group photo :x

Nao up for grab! :D

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Expected >:

Bound to have things like this happen.

When you told me the previous time,

You don't really know who you ....

I know and you know.

I got myself all prepared.

When you can't even decide on things like this.

Alright,

Not more words.

Will wait and see how things go.

Get well soon Ray

2010-04-18T15:07:00.002+08:00

Heartpain seeing him in hospital.
Gaaah~
Please get well soooon~

,

,

,

,

,

Went to hospital with June precious yesterday.
Everytime with her also a lot of funny things happen.
We wrapped present in Mrt standing up,
Power right!
Then we were busy camwhoring and we went all the way to dhoby ghaut when we are suppose to alight at little india.

And she goes saying,
Eh,
Why those indians never alight.
I was like,
@!@#$!@$#!
Indian people confirm need to alight at little india de lah!
Lmao~
And then we alighted at dhoby and went to the opposite track like an idiot.
(>.<)
Walked to kk from little india mrt.
Reached,
Saw ray, san sao, 3rd godbro, godsis and godma.
Wooooh,
Damn miss them de.
Sat for awhile and went down to eat.
Ate carrot cake.
Going to Hospital again.
Bye~

2010-04-13T12:44:00.004+08:00

Photos for yesterday.

Went to ex charlton primary school (Nao it's DPS International school) Opposite to pick saga seeds.
Those who studied in charlton before should know that big big tree that drops saga seeds.
(^.^)

I got a total of 113 saga seed in less than 20mins :D

His ''kan jiong'' face when we said bye bye and walked away.
Why is he so stupid.

My bag is obviously still on the chair -.-

*yawn~

'' Mummy, camera too low!''

@##$%!@#

I love this pic most! :D

A dog that eat grass. -.-

Okay,

Gotta go report naozx.

Baibye~

Keep you much longer

2010-04-12T00:00:00.005+08:00

The big big maple leaf we saw while walking back to bibi house.

Was watching show at living room and i told bibi to cut apple for me and didi.

And he took mrtbustaxi long.

Then he came back with this heart-shapeeee apple.

Though it is a bit disfigured,

But it's really sweet.

Both the apple and the heart bibi had to cut this out.

Muacks!

Hello earthlings!:D

Here to post as requested.

(^.^)

Nothing much.

Small conflict at home make me damn moody.

Anyway,

Went prawn fishing with bibi mum, bibi sis and bibi.

I suppose me and bibi caught at least 30 prawns.

Bibi mum brought back to cook.

My greatest regret is i forgot to take photo of those prawnssss.

Anyway,

Bibi mum also brought beer while we are prawning. (Many many jug)

Made lots of prawn friends there. (Uncles, auntie, jie jie and kor kor)

HAHA!

They are friendly. (^.^)

Finish prawning bibi mum and sis went home first.

Me and bibi went to find father ( Our God father )

He was fishing at the big pond.

Chat for awhile and we bused to prata shop for supper before heading home.

Okay,

Anyway, i won't be updating blog often. (lazyyyy)

Check out my twitter for updates :D

Ta~

useless

2010-04-03T12:53:00.002+08:00

Messed up with everything.
Life's in a mess.

Till now,
I understand that kind of disappointment mom felt.
I am a piece of paper with nothing but black inks.
A paper which everyone looks down on.

I tried not to care what people thinks and say.
& i seriously don't give a damn to it.
But till this second and this minute,
I understand that kind of feeling being look down on and being rejected.

I need a brain wash.
Once again,
I am gonna let this space rot for some time.

役に立たない

Smile even when it hurts

2010-04-01T07:08:00.003+08:00

It's 7am in the morning naozx.
& i am still suppose to be in my dreamland.
I got really pek chek with my sore and itchy throat + flu.
My throat seems to have a lot of dust stuck inside.
My running nose runs like water tap.
I used the whole box of tissue which i just open at 1am in the midnight.
Super power right!
[p/s; It's a big big water tap.]
I feel like cutting off my nose.
Geeees!
I woke up every hour.
Because of my fxcking irritating throat and running nose.
& also woke up for toilet.
FYI,
I forced myself to drink 1.5l of PLAIN water last night before i sleep.
& it's still like not getting better!
Nbcbzxcvbnm! (>.<)
What worse is imma still gonna report today.
Ohshit.
I wanna eat peanut butter bread, curry flavoured maggie, biscuit & chocolates!

'

'

'

I feel so unwell naozx. T.T

Sick

2010-03-31T18:51:00.002+08:00

Imma so sick naozx. T.T
Damn miserable.
Lots of thoughts running in my mind.
Something which i can't express out.
Something i can only keep it to myself.
Why is things turning out this way?
I am trying my very best already.
The stress you gave me.
& so many things happening.
Have you ever cared or ask me about what's happening?
Sometimes i really don't know.

'

'
In need of a job badly. Anyone?

sad

2010-03-29T23:10:00.003+08:00

Little stuffs causes whole world to be apart.
Little misunderstanding cause me to be so emotional naozx.
I don't wanna care anymore.
But i know i can never do that.
Whatever and let it be.
What should i do? OR should i say what can i do?
Shitthisdamnthing.

Blissful

2010-03-26T00:24:00.004+08:00

Went HQ to report today (^.^)
Bibi in the end wake up, So Ahjie and bibi accompany me go.
Muahahaha.
Actually want go before 12 de.
But in the end no time.
So went Upp serangoon shopping centre to eat.
Played some catch toy games.
Ahjie caught 1 mushroom soft toy and i caught one don't know what. (><)
1buck nia (^.^)
Heh!
After eating went up to find Shawn.
Nothing to do so went crocodile farm.
Really is like nothing much luh. But learn a lot about crocodiles. (^.^)

This is the one i caught!

Gave Ahdi as birthday present.

Don't say i niao okay!

Cause he keep looking at it & hugging it then i think he like so i say give him. :D

On bus on the way to HQ.

Okay, for this photo above, i was trying to make some effect but obviously i failed (>.<)

After reporting we 3 went to hougang mall withdraw money.

Went up to kpool for pool session.

Till evening time, Jeffrey and zhirong came.

Saw Roy they all there.

Finish playing went hougang mall again because bibi wanna play arcade.

Home sweet bibi home aftermath.

Then i don't know when ahdi that peacock pop out.

Went 309 to takeaway.

Went void deck to slack and eat.

Homed sweet home at 10pm.

Heh, imma tired already.

Tomorrow gonna go for my final tattoo session.

C O L O U R !

YAY!

Okay, sweet dreams earthlings!

[p/s: I love my Aka Family.]

Sweet dreams.

2010-03-25T08:43:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 17 BIRTHDAY TO AHDI AKA PEACOCK!
[p/s. Not i want to wish you late uh, because i didn't get to use my laptop before 12am. :x]

Chee Ngee (Ah di).

Chee ngee and Laifu.

Chee Ngee and Jaron.

Chee Ngee and Jeffrey.

Chee Ngee and Byron.

Chee Ngee and Xiaoqian.

Chee Ngee and Shirley.

Jeffrey, Laifu, Chee Ngee, Byron & Jaron.

T.T Can't count as whole family portrait, Zhirong absent!

Don't be happy, everything is NOT over yet! (^.^)
'

2ND ROUND.

Happy birthday!:D

But wait!

The proof of jaron, jeffrey, byron and CHEE NGEE Bully me!

Know why CHEE NGEE NAME SO BIG?
See what he doing on the floor!

He taking the floor one make me!
#$&*%#@!
Chee Ngee you lucky!
Jaron, jeffrey, byron and bibi!
Don't forget you all de birthday earlier than mine,
Die die die!

Okay,
After that went up to bibi house because everyone needs to wash up.

They helped bibi father do some things, play some cards and then plan for pool and billard session.

Outside of bibi house.

Winner of the day,
Pool,

~~Shirley~~ VS Chee Ngee Wins!

~~Xiaoqian~~ VS Lai Fu Wins!

~~Shirley~~ VS Lai Fu Wins!

~~Xiaoqian~~ VS Jaron Wins!
~~Wilson~~ VS Laifu Wins!

The rest Idk already. =x

Billard,

Tag team.
~~Shirley & Jaron~~ VS Lai Fu & Xiaoqian Wins!

In the toilet.

KFC For supper! :D
Only the four of us, the rest went back already.

Me, 2pc chicken meal.

Bibi, Zinger meal w/cheese fries.

Shirley, Ultimate Value box.

Jaron, Ultimate value box.

Egg tart from KFC.

Normal egg tart.

So don't get cheated.

Luckily we only brought 1 to try.

Okay, Gonna go prepare for HQ.

Waiting for Shirley ah jie to reach my house.

Cause she accompany me go!
Heeeh.

ILYYYY~

Anyway,

Chee Ngee Aka Ahdi

Ah di Aka Peacock,

Hope you enjoyed it throughout.

Cause you said every year also never celebrate.

This might not be the best but at least we are a family right!:D

Cheese!:D

2010-03-21T11:25:00.003+08:00

Ohaiyo!
Woke up at 7am today.
Because of that stupid.
Went 161 for breakfast.
Bused to serangoon north to find bibi de grandparents.
Kenna nag :]
Went down to pet shop.
Walked around waited for them to open.
Went to CC to see Cat show.
Saw pussy cat and lots more. [p/s: I don't know what is the other breed.]
Got one giant cat.
Uber big size, looks like ''lao hu'' (Tiger in english)
Photos in my phone, lazy to upload :x
Bibi brought puteh again.
While he choose his puteh i was playing with one parrot.
He/she damnnnn cute i tell you!
Keep saying hello and it can change it voice to those uber high and low pitch.
Still got tune one. Heeeeeello, Hallo.
& it sing. Like choir like that.
Hoo hooo hooooooooo~
Most funny is when i laugh,
He/she also copy me.
But he/she make de is evil laugh,
Muahhahahahha~
I wanna bring him/her home lor!
But too bad, NOT FOR SALE *Cry.
Okay, i also don't have $$$.
Went to another bird shop to buy yi shuo food.
Bused back to Bi house.
Eat ''gua zi'' together with bibi mummy, chit chatted then home sweet home.

Anyway,
Yesterday went Kovan Heartland Mall with bro, sis and jiefu.
Ate pizza hut.
Brother treat. ^^
They keep talking about iPhone! (>.<) Three of them also using iPhone. Gaaaaah. I take out my Lg phone also ps lor. After eating walked around to look for iphone case-ing. iPhone iPhone iPhone! Eeeewwww. Homed to feed Didi and went Ave 3 to find Bibi & co. Home at 11plus. Okay, off to Fb naoxz.

Tita~

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Without you, life goes better.

AKA

2010-03-20T23:42:00.006+08:00

Okay,

Photos in a mess naoxz.

But imma gonna let photo do the talking today.

Ta~

Over.

2010-03-19T23:24:00.006+08:00

1 more session to go ^^

Mini bottle

Jaron bro.

El-Oh-Veee-Eeee.

Ahdi aka peacock.

Jaron aka si bak.

Zhirong aka ah toot.

Shirley aka oink oink. My Ahjie.

Xiaoqian aka gay!

The aka brothers.

[p/s/s: All the name is given by Bibi]

I'm here blogging!

Guess guess guess!

Haha,

Today report,

Everything is fine ^^

Cnb still can disiao bibi.

In the end bibi father bail me siol.

Bibi father called my mum tell my mum call me don't run away.

Cause if i run away he must pay fine.

LOL.

Actually bail extended till april 1.

Then in the end they say wait for call.

Tsk*.

Waited for the form for 1 hour plus.

Damnit.

Hah.

After that go Hougang mall to withdraw money and eat.

After eating went 302 buy cig.

Then saw ahjie and ahdi at bibi house downstair.

Went up to bibi house to change clothes then off to pool.

Saw Xiuting there.

Finish playing pool went 7eleven find ahdi, jaron, zhirong and ahjie.

These are the wuxim peoples!

Cause we are the aka family.

HAHAHA.

Super happy naozx,

Cause won't seperate with aka family and bibi le.

(^.^)

Okay,

Going let bibi use laptop le.

Tataxz~

Final goodbye

2010-03-16T12:09:00.004+08:00

Expected outcome.

To my family, Godma and relatives.
I'm sorry.
I disappoint you all again.
Please take good care of your own health.
Mummy, Please don't throw Didi away when i am not around.
Treat him like he is one of us.
This is the last thing i will ask you to promise me.

To June Tan.
Let me be Da jie da this time can?
For the very first and last time.
Please take good care of your own health.
You are like more weak than me nao.
Getting sick so easily.
As for those things you always hide inside you heart,
Maybe you didn't trust me enough to tell me your problems or maybe you just wanna keep it to yourself.
Hello miss,
17 years already, you think you can lie to me?
One look in your eyes i know uh! Mai siao siao okay!
Anyway, It's not good to bottle it all up.
I'm here, i'm here, i'm here.
But nao,
I'm afraid i have to tell you,
I can't anymore.
From the 19th onwards,
I won't text you for nothing anymore,
won't cry and call you anymore,
won't webcam with you in msn anymore,
won't disiao you anymore,
won't joke with you anymore,
& no one will talk to you about the ps childhood anymore.
Just promise me to take good care of yourself.
I'm sure the next time when we meet,
We are all grown up already.
Most importantly,
If you can help me take care of godma.
&
Study hard alright.

To Bibi
You are the one that i can't bear to.
The one that i worry most.

Promise me,
You won't touch that thing again.
Promise me,
You will not do any illegal things anymore.
Promise me,
To eat regularly and drink more plain water.
Promise me,
Don't ton too much.
Promise me,
Don't jay walk on roads.
Promise me,
To take good care of yourself.
Promise me,
To be a better person.
Promise me,
To lead a better life.
Promise me,
To be happy.
Promise me,
To takecare of our son if you can.
Promise me,
You won't forget me. You will always remember me.

Everything is fated.
Don't you think so?
We went through so many ups and down,
& I'm so glad that we are still here, holding hands.

How i wish i can still stay by your side.
Let people say superglue also never mind.
But nao,
2days left.
I can't do much.

Please always remember,
My love for you is always true.
& for everything i am going to do,
Is definitely not what i wanted to.

On the day when things will happen,
Will be the day i set you free.
Baby, Please be happy.

To all my friends
Same words,
I'm sorry & take care.
Esp George Kor.
That day didn't reply your sms.
Because i know if i tell you that day,
You confirm angry then suddenly don't want contact me.
So i would rather choose today to tell you what happen.
Because only left 2 days.
& sooner or later you will know.
I was arrested by police again for drugs.
I'm sorry.
I know you confirm angry one.
I have nothing to say except for sorry.
Sorry for breaking my promise.
Get angry for nao,
But i believe you won't angry for too long de right?
2 years time for you to be angry.

See you guys 2 years later.

Love,

Xiaoqian

Anew

2010-03-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

Homed!

Was browsing through my photo folder and found this photos.

I wanna put extension!

Gonna hand my laptop over to that TYG soon.

Tataaaaaaa~

2010-03-15T09:11:00.003+08:00

FYI,
Those that use shortform names will NOT BE ENTERTAIN.

& for this,

Time&date: 12 Mar 10 12:39
Ip address: 220.255.7.223
AKA LESBIAN:
TAGGGGGG ;D <3 YOU LOTS

I just found out because i find it weird with those ";D" Cause bibi will never put all these. So i asked bibi whether he got tag me another one a not.
He say don't have.

For that someone,
Please grow up.

Anyone who can help me check out this ip address?
Thanks a lot.

2010-03-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

Me & shirley.

Da huo ji. (Big lighter)

No exact tattoo for nao.

Cause it's with shirley.

Upload when i have it.

Not much to post.

Imma having moodswing.

Stay away.

2010-03-12T09:25:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 7+am (>.<)
Because of Bibi.
Gaaaah.
Had Hotcake w/sausage meal for breakfast.
Bibi ate one breakfast deluxe alaka + Sausage egg muffin meal.
Big appetite he have got (>.<)
He so funny,
Go edit his photo put lonelyness.
So i asked him why.
Here goes the conversation,

Me: Why lonelyness! You boliao ah.
Bibi: Because you sleeping mah, then i lonely lor.
Me: (-.-) @#$^!@$^*!

'

'

'

He can be a sweetie pie sometimes.
& Sometimes he is a real devil (>.<)
Nao he is bugging me because he wanna use computer.
Real sorry Bibi.
Spoil your today plan.

Anyway,
Imma gonna go for my second tattoo session later on at 6pm.
Gotta catch some sleep naozx.

--Edited post--
Bibi everytime don't know how to sing act one sing lor.
Still tell me look at him, watch him sing.
(-.-)
Di siao siao one him.
Okay,
Stay tune for more more more --edited post--.
LOL!

--EDited post--
Okay, this might be the last edited post of the day.
Cause bibi fell asleep.
No more stupid stuffs.
He is someone who can fall asleep easily.
Just give him 3 minutes.
Don't disturb him or anything, and he will get into his dreamland ASAP.
Imma also gonna join him already.
Give him a good bashing in dreamland for waking me up sooo early when i only slept at 5am.
!*@#@!#*^&(!

Goooodybye.

Luvluvluv

2010-03-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

This post i wanna post about this girl name June.

To be exact, this is her full name.

June Tan Hui Yan.

I spend almost all my childhood with her.

& come to think of it, it's so lame.

& nao, whenever i reminded her of our childhood she will call me to shut up.

Cause it is so pai seh. HAH.

But worth reminiscing.

I miss our childhood like mrtbustaxi much!

She is like a ''da jie da'' to me when we are young.

But there is times when we quarrel over little stuffs.

& y'know, that is because we are still a kid!
Till the age of 7, i shift back to stay with my family.

We wrote letters to one and other almost everyday.

Which i still have it.

Our fav idol in the past, F4.

HAHHAHAHA.

Time after time, we drifted.

We stop writing letters to one another, stop sms-ing and blah.

I think there's still some time we can only get to see each other 1 time in a year.

Which is reunion dinner and CNY at godparent's place.

But nao,

We are good cousins:D

She is still my da jie da.

HAHA.

Every time when i met a problem,

I run to her.

Though she didn't really got me feeling better but at least, she is by my side.

I don't wanna us to drift so sometimes i bo tai bo ji will text her or miss call her.

LOL.

Sometimes i will just imagine life without her i will die.

Okay, i am not being mushy here.

Anyway,

THANK YOU JUNE TAN.

A BIG BIG THANK YOU.

Drained.

2010-03-11T04:27:00.002+08:00

Done changing my blogskin.

And it's 4.32am naozx. >.<
I still got to report later. How great.

Songs will be up when i am free.

Tata.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Words that comes out from your mouth,

Is words that never went through your big brain.

It's not the first time.

I always said,

Please put yourself in my shoe.

I am just me, myself and i.
Don't try to change me.
I won't change for anything nor anyone including you.
Love me for me.

2010-03-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

Currently using my phone to blog & currently at ave 3 basketball court.
Hah.
Awaiting for 19march. Imma don't know what will happen T.T
To all my love ones,
Do takecare.
That's all for nao. Let me spend th rest of my beautiful moment with my love ones.
Tata.

Destroyed.

2010-03-04T14:01:00.003+08:00

Got my 2nd tattoo.

But not completed yet.

Still got 2nd session.

Closed my eyebrow piercing.

Now going off to report HQ.

Siannnttm.

Byezx.

--Edited post--

Got bored while waiting for b wakeup.

So i start torturing my hair.

Getting sick and tired of straight hair.

I wanna get it perm sooooon.

$$$ come.

Okay,

It's almost 3 already.

Gotta cab to HQ alone if b still don't wanna wakeup.

BB!

Annoying

2010-02-26T10:01:00.003+08:00

Make it short, I hate people who obviously cares a lot yet wanting to show that it doesn't matters at all.
You are only being so annoying trying to attract attention by crying, throw tantrums, talking craps and being sooooo cheap.
Is that the only thing you can do to attract that particular person to know your existence?
Wow, such a failure i should say.
Stop being a pain in the neck.
With you, i no longer felt inferior.
You are only making me feel that you are so lack of confidence in yourself and showing how stupid you are.
And if you think this will change the fact of what isn't yours, think twice.
Or maybe you will think it's affecting me, oh gosh, you have no brains.

Okay, there's more for me to say but i hate racking my brains over all these stuffs.
Completely wasting my time.
Off waking up my Bibi for breakfast and off i go for my tattoo session.

losted

2010-02-25T04:51:00.000+08:00

Current mood: confused.
always feeling inferior. Unknown on how to take th next step. You completely failed me. Successfully brought me down. Hate to love. Love to hate. Never ending shitzx.

2010-02-19T03:01:00.002+08:00

hello!
Currently using my phone to post.
So cool.
Hah.
Gonna get my second tattoo next week. Woohoo.
Okay, off to sleep naozx. Tata.

Inferior

2010-02-17T14:55:00.002+08:00

Okay, lots of things happen and life is about pool-ing and ton-ing.

I hope everything will be fine.

It's like me getting myself back to the starting point. *tsk.

Jealousytrustlovelife.*Fake

Told myself not to care anymore, but what i did is caring more.

Over the limit, crossed the line.

Descending into the inferior regions of the earth.

2010-02-13T18:56:00.002+08:00

Never be the same.

Everything just ain't what i thought.

Pathetic shaitszx.

Lemme be alone. For now.

不要了

2010-02-13T04:08:00.002+08:00

OHHIHELLO!:D
Nothing much to post.

Lost and confused is my mood now.
OHMAMASHITTHAT.

Bai!

Distorted

2010-02-11T13:02:00.004+08:00

Shopping plan cancelled. *cry.

But after reporting gonna get my second lips piercing. (^.^)

So i still do have backup plan eh. *Wink.

Chinese New Year is reaching.

Everyone is looking forward to it. But not for me.

I want to be in a place where no one would find me.

I need to cry it out loud.

It's like three months since you are gone.

& this three months, bad things never stop coming.

People changes, Time passes mad fast.

I see people moving forward and me, still glued to this pathetic dead end.

Shattered dreams, heart and me.

History

2010-02-11T02:48:00.003+08:00

Accompany Mr.To, To bugis today.

I hao xin okay! c(: *bleahxz

Saw Wawa, Kelly Jie, Eunice, Huiling, Yu huan and co.

Walk until leg cramp uh.

Pick here pick there (>.<)

Actually he wanna buy shirt for me de,

But don't have the colour i want.

So he disiao me say buy couple ring (-.-)

Cheap cheap one. LOL. Okay la, not say very cheap. (^.^)

Finish buying his stuffs i complain hungry, so he treat me eat KFC.

Muahahahha.

But got condition one nor!

Say eat le must accompany him go another place.

ROAR.

Bobian i eat fries already.

Serangoon north aftermath to accompany him for haircut. Duh!

Let me cut better lor!

Be my model. Confirm you likeeeee it one! *MOTAK!

Hahahha.

Walked to bus stop and while waiting for bus.

Took 25 back to block one and walked back to his house.

Because Mr To say : Since also say hao accompany me le, jiu all the way lah.

LPPL!

At 11plus Mr To send me home.

I tabao-ed french fries from his house for supper. *HAHHA.

Anyway, i felt guilty because i left my son at home for so long.

I'm so sorry son.

When i have money bring you go dog spa okay!

Tomorrow going Bugis again.

But with my dearest mummy.

HAHAH.

Okay tomorrow still gonna report and i totally forget about it because everything on my mind is "what should i buy tomorrow?"

LOL.

Okay got to go. Nights!

The photo below is Yeo didi.

over sensetive

2010-02-10T00:51:00.004+08:00

In the end, i didn't give Cnb a skip today.

Sianzxedttmaxxxx

Imma jealous jealous jealous!
Y'know that.?
It's unfair unfair unfair.
Ohshityou.

All i want is your love.

2010-02-09T14:38:00.001+08:00

Imma skipping Cnb today.
No shoe plus leg injured cannot wear long pants.
Urghhs.
Anyone want accompany me to poly clinic for mc?
(>.<)

Changed blogskins.
Lovingit!
Updated my songs.

That's all for today.
Tatatata~

Fxcktard

2010-02-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

Heart shape bread. ^^ At 147.

That day went to work.

Shall let photos do the talking.

Not in the mood to post as much now.

Sawrrrey (>.<)

So close yet so far.

What's going wrong these few days?

Argghh.

I don't like it, i don't like it, I DON'T LIKE IT.

2010-02-05T15:31:00.004+08:00

The kitten we saw.

& it's only 1 finger big with eyes unopened yet. ohmy

Sadly no one wanted to adopt it.

I can't cause i have a weirdo son.

Tyg dad don't allow say what Chinese cannot have cat as pet because will swayy.

-.-

Ahdi don't want.

Jaron house also got dog.

Zzz.

We put it back to the original place and went up to tyg house.

Till 9 plus me and shirley went down to see.

Got good Samaritans brought milk for them.

But they don't know how to drink.

So i went to take straw and feed them one by one.

Shirley help them to peepeee by using a tissue rubbing their private parts.

They can't even pee on their own.

Fed and pee-ed.

But don't know why they keep calling.

Maybe they want mummy?

At around 10,

One adult cat came closer to us.

So me and shirley walked to one side and see.

We both kan chiong scared the cat will eat away those kitten

But in the end it's the mother of those kitten.

Finally we both felt so at ease.

At least those baby have real mother milk to drink then drinking HL milk which don't know is good for them or not.

Okay anyway,

I hope they will be healthy

& grow up to pretty little cats

Photo taken on bus.

--Edited on 09/02/10--

2010-02-02T03:11:00.003+08:00

Went to many peepols blog.
& it seems like everyone is going towards their dream.
What bout me me me?
Gaaaaaah~
I've got to move on!
My life is no life ><

Blogger is getting so boring.
But i still love blogging!
Anwayzxxzxzzzx,
Imma off to sleep nao cause tomorrow still need to report.
Tatitaatatata~

flicker minded.

2010-02-02T02:13:00.002+08:00

Nothing i do seems right in your eyes.
So why should i even bother to change myself to what you wanted me to be?
So what if i ever did something wrong?
Does that mean i am forever a rotten apple?
Why can't you see how hard i am trying to change myself?
To a better person. TO YOUR SATISFACTION.
You are making me go mad like seriously
No matter what i do, nothing is right and no matter what you say everything is right.
HAVE YOU EVER TRIED PUTTING YOURSELF IN MY SITUATION AND THINK?
Sis ever said this to me, no matter what, you are still our dad. We run in the same blood and we will never be able to hate one another no matter what shyt we have done or caused.
Why didn't you tried talking things out nicely?
Why in the hell you think beating and scolding foul words will make things go better?
You are the reasons that i don't wish to come home.

You make me goes wondering whether if i have a home, a dad.
Dad, you make me feel so homeless.

Perplexed

2010-01-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

I neeeeeeeeeeed a temp job! (>.<)

Back to blogging.

Wanna send my laptop for servicing sooooooon.

Anyway,
Homed and imma off to sleep (^.^)
Tataaaaaa~

Unexplainable

2010-01-28T01:27:00.002+08:00

Back to my mood.
(^.^) *Cheers
Got caught up by fluzxzxcvbnm ><
And i got my lips pierced, this time not on the side but the center.
Sooon i will be painting my room pink! :D
Wooohoooo~
Valentine's day is the first day of chinese new year.
Howhowhow? LOL.
I don't wanna spend me valentine collecting ang bao's neh.
No love one lor.
LOL.
After new year tattoo full uh!
No lah.
But going get one same tattoo as Tao yan gui.
& still waiting for my that laopo to put same one as me lor.
Buay steady onezx.
Everytime say i never contact her ><
Contact her she don't want pick up.
Kuku one.
See this and contact me asap hor!
Missya lots.

Anyway, today is a f day.
But thanks Tao yan gui for speaking up for me. Loveya *wink
Maybe he's right eh?
No freedom.
Haiyah,
Don't wanna think so much also nah.
Just forget it.

Mdm say i quit school she jiu can release me from CNB le.
How shiok?
But don't know is real or fake lor.
Later she go back on her words.
Don't care lah.
Sibei sian every week report 2 times. ><
So try bah.
Gotta get mummy to take out some of her time and go school get all the paper work done.

Off for some games nao.
Tatazx.

Never ending

2010-01-26T02:45:00.009+08:00

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading. So sick and tired of all the needless
beating

Back to blogging after three days and i am here with heavy, hard and confused feelings. Repeat repeated. Words still falls on deaf ears. Unstoppable. Not able to bring myself to do it. what shit
Okay thats all for today. Not in the mood naozx. Bye.

Love that never exist

2010-01-22T16:12:00.002+08:00

People is changing every day, every hour, every minutes or even seconds.
I can tell you i wanna go back to school now and then the next few seconds i say '' aiyah sian lah. don't want lah''
But seriously i miss school days && of course my dear schoolmates.

I'm having eyes infection.
Know why?
Cause imma lazy to wash my lenses ><
& my eyes have been reddish for like 3 days already.
Anyway, i still force myself to wear lens because i can't live w/o them.
So maybe i will go blind some days eh.

I want some temp job pleasee.
Life is getting so fuckup without $$$.

& i hate getting money from mum now.
Gaaah gaaaah gaaah.
Makes me wanna stay away from home.

Okay, this post is super random. (^.^")
But at least i updated my dying blog.

Going out nao.

byes.

Irritating meow

2010-01-21T03:40:00.003+08:00

TYG house > Hougang mall posb > home sweet home.
Thanks Tao yan gui for accompanying me (^.^)
Tao yan gui is sleeping nao, he say tomorrow accompany me go HQ (^.^)
Yayyyaes~
Off to sleep niaozx.

ohshitthat

2010-01-20T01:03:00.002+08:00

Homed (^.^)

Yesterday CNB de mdm and sir all very good.

I thought i lost my green card. ><

Thanks mom for helping me find it.

After CNB , went Tao yan gui house.

Tao yan gui not sick anymore le. (^.^) *Happy for him.

It's raining! Weeeehaaaa~

Off to sleep naoo~ Nights!

Wonderful, i am jealous.

2010-01-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

Accompany Tao yan gui to 24hours clinic in the night.

Had supper then Home Sweet Home ^^.

P/s: Tao yan gui, get well sooon! Imma worried y'know! ><

17/01/10

Esplanade with Tao yan gui.

But before that, Kovan for lunch. Kfc 2piece meal.

On the Waterfront.

I admire that lady singing there alot!

Her voice is superb one!

& she, her own wrote a song for her mom.

Listen will cry one i tell you.

I loved all those sea shells! ><

So huge and beautiful.

Tao yan gui actually want secretly take one for me, but don't want nar,

Later kenna caught very chor one. ><

Mac for Dinner at marina square.

Stayed there till 9plus.

Trained home.

& the following picture.

The rumored "Crying tree"

Located at Charlton park. (Ex Charlton primary school backyard, Currently DPS International School).

Those that studied there will know.

This tree is Scaaaaary

It will dance and cry.

& this is no joke!

It will dance when there is no wind at all. And the only tree that is moving out of the rest.

& it will cry with waters or maybe tears from the eyes when it is sad.

I see it with my own eyes years back when i am studying in charlton primary.

& i can't believe i still can see this tree when i walked past on the 17th.

& of course, i am not the one who took this picture.
Tao yan gui took this.

& now the crying tree have eye lashes which is leaves growing out from the eyes.
No joke man! >< Mygawd.

Okay, that's all for today.

Nights!

Get well soon tao yan gui!

2010-01-17T23:52:00.005+08:00

14/01/10

Raffles place for job interview.

The crowd there is non stop one i tell you!

I just felt so awkward being there cause all i can see there is office men and office woman.

Went OUB centre.

Exchanged my ez-link for the visitor pass and went up to 55th storey.

The lift super fast and ears confirm get stuck one. ><

Bernard was the one who interviewed me,

& that company is named GMP.

he is handsome. LOL.

But old enough to be my uncle. So sad ><

After finish going to raffles place.

Trained to somerset and went centre point for the next interview.

Same job lai de.

Gmp is my agent nor.

Till now i haven't recieve call. Cui liaooo~ ><

12/01/10

Jie fu house to overnight.

Had mahjong, dinner and then beer for the night!:D

Enjoyed my day without my son. But kinda miss him and not use to it w/o him around.

Off to look after that tao yan gui.

Nights!

p/s: Get well soon tao yan gui.

Your lies littered my life.

2010-01-17T03:27:00.003+08:00

Thanks Kee huat for helping me update my blog ^^
At least not so dead eh.
Haha.
Anw,
HE HACK INTO MY ACCOUNT!
HAHA.
Opps ><
Anw,
Pictures will be up tomorrow.
Off to sleep.

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Why is it this way?

2010-01-16T04:16:00.002+08:00

Hello humansss!
Its CKH here posting for YEOXIAOQIAN.
HAHAH.

Anw,xq isnt in the right mood recently,let us al cheer for her kay?
JIAYOUUUUU!!!
Hope that she can have a good start in this brand new year!! :D
hmm,think i shall stop here cause dont really know what esle more to say.haha.
GOODBYEEEE!

ps;

YXQ,Be strong kay?those are memories like what you said,whish means its the past.What's gone is gone alright?Dont think so much.Everything will be fine after sometime.kay?

You will never fall because there's always me by your side.haha ;D

bestwishes!

loves<3

Defeated.

2010-01-12T03:17:00.005+08:00

我... 输了。

也许从来都没有赢过。

超级无敌的失败者。

无可理喻的白痴。

童话故事的完美结局，最终还是不属于我的。

不停的拉扯，也没将命运改变。

所做的一切，根本只是让人觉得幼稚。

总是以为自己想通了，看开了。

不停的欺骗，伤害自己。

不管我多努力的想要当做根本没一回事，

多努力的希望回忆就只会是回忆，

这都只是在欺骗自己。

努力的安慰自己，努力的带着笑容，现在看回来，

觉得好傻，好瞎。

这一切总算结束了。

但对我来说是一个开始... 痛苦的开始。

坏人是我。

而我原谅不了这超级大坏蛋。

Will be leaving this space for some times.

Takecare all.

Hope for a better Xiaoqian when she comes back.

Copy meow sucks!

2010-01-11T19:30:00.004+08:00

10/01/09

Pool in the night with June and huiming.

11/01/09

Meet glen at bugis.

Shopped and spent a total of 200bucks today ><

Mum called and told me she was at si ma lu.

So went to meet her for dinner and showed her the clothes i brought.
Trained home with mum.

Reached kovan, brought two pair of lens and got my hair cut.

Went fairprice buy didi dog foods and treats.

The below photo is yi shuo.

Understand why she is named yi shuo already?

HAHAH.

Anw, i am missing her badly.

Maybe tomorrow go see her after reporting.

Tata~

shithell

2010-01-11T00:31:00.006+08:00

如果你做措事，人家就会一辈子认定你是坏人。

认输了吗？

Hallucination

2010-01-10T18:11:00.002+08:00

Switching of dreams nowadays.
But this one is the most perfect one.
It was about this particular guy A,
P/s: I am not at all close with him. Maybe only to the extend of hi-bye friends only.
He's a perfect romantic guy but always get dump by girls for i don't know what reasons.
This dream is completely perfect but when i notice it's only a dream i felt quite sad. ><
Hmms, so in this dream it was about me wanting to take some revenge on this guy B and i met guy A and he is there for some holiday in Malaysia.
Told A my main purpose and A helped me.
But many sad things happen because of the other guy B(The one i wanna take revenge on)
This guy, B also knew what i am trying to do, so he do all sorts of cruel and despicable things to chase me out of Malaysia.
But due to A clever brains we manage to have some fun with this guy B.
Until the end of the day of A holiday and my revenge plan i found myself in love with him. LOL.
He is real sweet i tell you.
I don't really want to wake up from this dream so i glued to my bed till 5pm.
HAHA, that's really dumb.

Anyway,
It's sad that it is only a dream.
I woke up and told glen about this dream.
He's like sort of not happy. Lol.

Okay, going out for pool with my precious.
Stay tune for photos and more wonderful dreams of mine! LOL.

Dumbass

2010-01-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

08/01/09

Went peicai but cannot go in ><
So went serangoon north meet sis and jiefu.
Went bird shop buy cockatiels milk powder.
Shopped around, see birds/parrots, brought cigarettes and sis brought her stuffs.
Went nearby kopitiam eat,
Back to bird shop again.
Started pouring so we decided to go kopitiam and wait until the rain stops.

Home sweet home at 6pm.
Out again at 7pm.
Went ave 8 meet glen.
He cabbed down find me after work.
He keep make me run here and there.
Act one don't know ave 8 de way.
I was like worry until like f only then he appear behind me.
I thought what bangala >< Scare die me. Almost cry out lorhs. zz!
Sibei angry one.
But when see him jiu not angry le. Felt so secured.
Slacked and talked.
Thanks for listening to me though it's all craps ><
Thanks for lending me your shoulder.
I know you are tired from work, yet you don't mind taking out some of your beauty sleep just to accompany me.
I couldn't thank you enough.
Chased him home at 10pm.

Went to meet chew kee huat.
Talk talk talk also.
After went petrol station because kee huat want withdraw money.
I help him withdraw!
LOL.
I guessed his posb pin.
1 try pass ney!
LOL!
& his bank sibei wu lui!
My reaction is WTF?
Cabbed to kovan mac for supper.
Slacked at void deck till 12+am,
Send him go take cab.
Back to mac find sis, jiefu and qiu yan.
Eat eat eat again.
HAHAH!
But this is the first time i eat filet want vomit.
Maybe sick and tired of it le bahs.
Hahs. gotta change niaoo.
Slacked then sis drive us back home.
Mahjong mahjong mahjong.
Ah kent ( sis boyf ) Has a new name. Ah hen ^^
HAHAHA.
Laugh non stop one.
Macdonald breakfast at 4am.
Hotcake meal ^^
Till morning 5am, sis drove qiuyan home.

Stayed awake till 6am waked Joanna ahjie up.
Then to dreamland.10+am wake up.
Actually wanna go church with joey mummy,
joanna ahjie they all de.
But my eyes uber swollen because i go rub, then me no mood go out. >< PS.
Till afternoon,

Wokeup, prepare and bathed didi.

> Jiamin laopo and jiazhen sweetie @ kovan.
KFC 2pc meal for lunch.

Walked around, slacked.
Back home at 6pm.
Rested and went for a jog with sis.

Left: Tiny. Right: Weeny.

Tiny weeny.

Unfortunately,

Tiny passed away after struggling for one week due to lacking of vitamins and calcium.
RIP TINY.

You are the cutest terrapin i have ever seen.

& i gave my cockatiel away.

But previously. sis and jiefu gave her a name '' yi shuo ''

Those who knows how to play mahjong will know what is that. ^^

Photos is in sis com.
Shall upload tomorrow and you will understand why they name her ''yi shuo''.

Gonna wait for glen tabao mac for me.
But scared i fall asleep >< zz.
Go find show watch lurh. ^^

Tata~

Private blog updated*

Please drop dead.

2010-01-07T23:30:00.004+08:00

Reported HQ.

Thanks glen for taking half day leave just to accompany me, making sure i am alright. Thanks alot.

Finish reporting, bused to hougang point.

Walked to Laopo(Jiamin) House.

Reached then glen went back to work.

Every minute also got one message from him.

Was actually planning to go AMK hub walk walk then after that go laopo friend house drink de.

But imma not feeling well. ><

Eat and puke, drink and puke.

So rested at laopo house, fall asleep.

Till 7+pm woke up.

Saw 80 miss call and 40 messages.

3/4 from glen de. ><

Sorry! Was sleeping then phone in silent mode.

Don't angry urhs!

Laopo mother cook things give me eat.

Eat and threw out everything again.

Damn xinku one larhs. T.T

Cabbed home at 8.30pm.

Saw glen outside my house.

Walked over, when i am going to ask why he outside my house, i saw his redish eyes.

Super guilty de ><

Sorry sorry. Made you worry ><

My stomach is calling yet i can't eat.

Gahhhh, Gotta get some sleep now.

(^.^) Byeeee~

Big big sorry to those that are worried.

George kor, Thanks for cheering me up. Sorry for making you worry.

Desmond, Thanks for scolding me, i really understand. Sorry for making you worry.

Laopo, Thanks for accompanying me today. Sorry for making you worry.

Chengyi, I know you will get so pc also because i every time also like that. Thanks for talking senses into me. Sorry to make you worry.

Amanda sister, Though you told me you are not good in words. But i appreciate alot when you tried cheering me up. Thanks and sorry!

Arron T, I understand why you will get so angry, i never blame you for scolding me, thanks for waking me up. Sorry to make you worry.

Keehuat, I can only say, i'm sorry. Real sorry!

Last but not least,

Glen idiot,

I really appreciate it a lot, seriously.

But why didn't you get mad at me?

Why did you still worry so much for me?

I felt so guilty seeing you cry.

From the day i know you,

I only bring trouble to you and make you worry.

Yet, you didn't gave up talking senses into me patiently.

Your shoulder never fail to be there for me.

You never fail to.

Did so much,

But i am still like a fool.

I'm sorry for making you so worried today.

Thanks alot.

*Private blog updated.

2010-01-04T23:16:00.003+08:00

Bibi house yesterday night.
Cabbed to sengkang take bibi de xbox.
Then back to 327 for supper.
Swwet bibi home aftermath.
Watch him play game.
Till morning went out for walk.
Back at 8plus then went hougang mall with bibi and his mother for breadfast.
Fall dead directly at bibi's house.
Revived at 3+pm.
Woke up.
Saw byron, jeffrey, wilson, zhirong and melvin.
All play xbox ><
Till evening bibi dad drove us back to my house.
& now bibi is sleeping like a piggggg. *oink oink.

Tomorrow gonna report.
So bb!
(^.^)

Come a little closer.

2010-01-03T04:20:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 4+ today.

Bathed myself, Feed cockatiels, bathed puteh, change terrapin water, feed terrapin and feed didi

Woke bibi up.

Waited for him to bath.

Bused to hougang mall then to bibi house.

Blk 1 aftermath.

Slacked and went CC watch lion dance.

Chicken spaghetti for late dinner.

Till 11+pm bused home.

See bibi play game.

Currently in love with my blog song ^^

Gonna join bibi in dreamland niaooo.

Tata~

2010-01-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

Haha! Retard.

Was thinking of posting photos cause my blog look so wordy & plain.

Okay,

Going out now.

Tata~

Happy new year!:D

2010-01-01T04:00:00.002+08:00

Didn't do much for countdown.
Not really looking forward to 2010. Cause i know 2010 will be a bad year for me.
2009 isn't all that good year for me also.
So sway hur!
Lose to the fate, fail for the destiny.
Totally confuse now.
Don't wanna think so much.
So off for some sleep i guess?
Nightyssnights.

不在一样了

2009-12-30T23:50:00.003+08:00

Just came back from lion dance training.
Accompany bibi go.
Sit there do nothing.
See them practice.

Found this quote in sis blog.
" Your love has a price tag and i can't afford it "
Loveit!

Tomorrow still gonna report ><
Sayonara.
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很丢脸，很委屈吗？

我早就应该料到会有这一天。

不是原谅不了你，而是原谅不了我自己。

我无话可说，就让命运来安排吧。

2009-12-29T10:05:00.002+08:00

[ps/ not black and white effects. Don't buy LG cookie phone.!]

Okay, super random now.

Cause i seriously don't know what to post about.

Life is all about toning, chioning show, sleep, eat, shop, & lastly waking up every 9am to feed my new pet milk cause it has not yet learn how to eat on its own.

It's a parrot. Cockatiels.

Don't ask me why the name sound so nice. Ask those birds/parrot proffessional why they gave them this name.

Maybe because of the few strands of hair on top of their head?

Hah! I don't know.

If your question is: Did your parrot just took some ecstasy or some shake head pills?
My answer would be: Yes.
She will never get tired of shaking her head this way. I don't know why.
It's a everyday exercise.

Gotta got now because i am getting late for report ><
Shall post up some of my Cockatiels photo sooon. ^^
Stay tuned!

做一个好人

2009-12-28T03:23:00.003+08:00

Tears never stop rolling down.

Totally speechless about myself.
100% failure.

Memories

2009-12-25T03:54:00.004+08:00

Feb 2009. Godparents birthday.
Our first family portrait.

Pa smiling happily.

Not long after, you are in Institute Of Mental Health. For i don't know what reason, Maybe putting you there will be safer. But there is nothing wrong in you at ALL.

& this is the last photo taken with you.

09 November 09

You are here.

& me now here 25/12/09 still couldn't actually accept the facts that you are gone.

Folding those paper money for you. Tell you my problems through those incense sticks with no reply.

Hougang Ave 8 left ed with only memories of me and you cause you are no longer around.

Times you brought me down for fishball noodle with many many many ketchup.

Times you pat me to sleep when rains come telling me ''xia yu liao loh, hen hao sui jiao oh!".

Times you brought my ''tutu'' and ''baobao'' for me when i cry.

Times when you sing hokkien songs teaching me how to sing.

Times when i asked you not to smoke anymore, you replied ok. And went out to secretly smoke.

Times when you woke up in the middle of the night when i cried in horror because of nightmares.

Times when you carried me by your legs up and down.

Times when you piggy back me and acted like a horse.

Times when my hand are stuck in between the lift door, you used all your strength to force open the door and tell me not to be afraid, everything will be fine.

Times when you woke me up & brought me down early in the morning just to accompany you drink kopi-o.

Times when we go to the fitness corner & walked with our bare feet on those sharp stones, telling me its good for blood circulation & we will always compete on who will reach the end first so you always act one and let me win.

Times you brought me to ah-o shop for jellys, ice cream, sweets, chocolate and drinks.

Times when me and ahyan did wrong things, you cover it up for us.

All these times, i will never ever forget.

Please don't forget me.

2009-12-24T00:30:00.003+08:00

Went kbox with bibi and his mom yesterday midnight.

Stayed overnight at bibi house.

Afternoon bibi go 309 tabao western food for me ^^

Slacked.

Dinner with bibi and his dad at 309.

Wilson and zhirong came.

Went Hougang mall accompany bibi buy new phone.

Samsung OMNIA.

Sibei style de nor.

But bibi noob noob don't know how to use. LOL.

Make me wanna change phone also.><

Waiting foe mummy to buy me desktop.

Then fix aircon in my room.

Off to accompany bibi niaooo~

Byezxcvbnm~

ANW,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUTING!:D

Luvsluvs~

我做不到

2009-12-21T03:57:00.003+08:00

So close yet so far.
To the limit, i can't take it.
I know this won't be just only one time.
More to come up next.
Okay, whatever.
Just let it be.
The more i wanna try to lead your life,
the more complicated things become.
So that's it. Seriously.
I don't wanna care anymore.
I don't wanna be unreasonable.
So yeah, enjoy hurhur. ^^

Full stop.

No longer the same.

2009-12-20T18:21:00.002+08:00

Heard those gossiping.
But i won't let it affect anything in my life now.
Talk, speak, say as many as you guys wants.
It doesn't actually matters but it hurts so much that i wanted to explain clearly.
But to the point, why must i?
For long enough, people who know me know that it will take my life to say sorry.
But it depends on who and if i really did wrong.
But right now, right here, whose at fault?
Maybe me, you, you or us?
I know i am talking shit crap here.
But this is us, we all have similarities after all this long bonds between us.
We will never ever admit that it is out fault.
Even we are, we will turn around and blame the other party.
Understand or not,
I just want to say,
I never ever wanted us to become like this.
Say i am acting pity or say i am being sarcastic.

Everything is different now.
& till now i know, how weak our bonds is.
Yeah, that's it.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Min,
At hougang mall not don't want see you nar.
Don't think too much kays.
Don't worry, i am still your forever tree ^^
Luvsluvs.

2009-12-19T18:02:00.001+08:00

Tagboard.

J He will be mine de

DATE: 19 Dec 09 17:31

IP ADDRESS: 220.255.7.244

To this fucker please put you name.
Put your BIG name down larh hor.
Want say, say OUT LOUD LARHZX.
Who will be yours?
NB, Dog hiding behind computer.
Fcuk off.

Anyone can kindly help me check whose ip address is that?
Thanks.

2009-12-19T04:18:00.004+08:00

I Love Stitch<3

19/12/09

The day bibi pei me go HQ :D ILY<3

The day went Ichiban sushi with bibi and his mum.

Bibi house today > Slacked > Hougang mall > NF > Home sweet home.

Lazy to write more details these few days.

Byeeezx.

2009-12-18T02:57:00.003+08:00

Fun with webcam.

Tell me you love me:D

Bibi took this while i am sleeping, sibei disiao nor $^**&^%$#^&*

Bibi accompany me to HQ today.

Mark attendance jiu go le.

Urine test haven't come out ><

Bused back to hougang mall buy stuffs > bibi house.

Play Poker with Jeffrey, Bibi mummy and bibi.

7+ went jln payoh > ave 3 till 11pm.

Home sweet home:D

My superuber courage to post this,

'

Tell me you love me :DDD

Off go sleep :D

Hell out of me

2009-12-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

Woke up early in the morning and went to bibi house.
Went 327 with bibi and bibi de mummy while waiting for bibi de daddy.
Reported > hougang mall Ichiban sushi for lunch with bibi and his mom.
Back to bibi house > Slacked.

I don't really want to say much in my post.
Just glad that you are fine.
Now it's my turn worrying for myself.

Lost for words.

2009-12-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

Woke up real late today ><
Cabbed to HQ at 4+ with bibi.
Sorry bibi let you wait so long.
Nbknncbb onezxxxx.
Kenna Urine test, this time siao liao.
Drink plaine water until i puke. wtf
FuckCNB. CNB sucks big time.
Till 6 then go back Bibi house.
Went hougang Mall macdonald for lunch with Bibi, wilson and zhirong.
Shopped > meet joey and yuan > jln payoh > bibi house> 838 slack due to some stuffs.

Really afraid that urine test will be positive ><
Really cannot bear to let go of everything. Esp bibi
Shit this life. Hate that shit.
Will everything be fine?
What will happen to my son? My bibi? My friends? My family?
Fuck this feeling.

I am having serious headache now.
Don't know what will happen to bibi tomorrow.
Sigh.
So worried.
Stressed up

Bibi,

Remember what yout told me to promise you?

You also must promise me okay?

Iloveyou.

One&only

2009-12-15T04:25:00.003+08:00

Bibi,

I really very heartpain see you every day also so fan.

I really hope and i will pray real hard for everything to be fine.

These few days you keep telling me to promise you those stuffs.

I really hate you thinking all the negative side.

But i promise you no matter what happen,

I will be here, won't move a single bit.

From 2707081131 that moment, no one else but you.

You are the one baby.

We went through rains and sunshine.

Overcome so many obstacles.

& here we are again. 0912090227.

So please throw all those fucking stuffs apart and cherish the time we have together.

Lets just enjoy all we could now and stop thinking about all those stuffs k?

I{L}Y.

2009-12-15T00:42:00.001+08:00

Hougang interchange meet wilson, jeffrey & zhirong > hougang mall foodcourt > Jln payoh.

2009-12-14T00:06:00.007+08:00

Pictures up!:D

Bibi no skill take photo.

HAHAH.

Can you see how much i love the christmas hat? HAHA~

HAHA.

Having lotsa fun camwhoring on bus.

Poor bibi D: *heartpain.

-.-

Can you see i am pulling bibi head? HAHHAHA!

Wilson, Yiyu, Me, Bibi, Yu an & zhirong.

Shirley is the camera woman ^^

Yiyu, Zhi rong, Bibi, Me, Wilson & Yu an.

11/12/09

Went hougang mall foodcourt with bibi for lunch again ^^

Brought our stuffs then went Bibi house.

Shirley off day so we at home talk talk.

Wilson, zhirong and yu an came.

Saw Yiyu below bibi block.

All went hougang mall buy things then all together go Jln payoh slack.

Slack finish went back bibi house then Bibi, me and yu an go ave 3 ton.

Till morning walked to ave 8 buy things then back to bibi house.

12/12/09

Slept till afternoon,

Went hougang mall with bibi, yu an and zhirong.

Brought stuffs and ate Bee hoon for lunch.

Then jln payoh. ^^

Slack slack then walk around.

Evening came back home to bring didi to bibi house.

Hougang mall > jln payoh again.

Back to bibi house in the midnight.

13/12/09

Slacked @ bibi house till afternoon then went hougang mall with zhirong, yu an, wilson and bibi.

Bibi and Yu an Pierce nose. ><

Find it weird weird de nor.

But nevermind lah. Happy jiu hao.

> Jln payoh again again ^^

@ night meet Joanna and liang soon at hougang mall interchange cause Joanna jiejie want buy things.

Shopped at hougang mall then Joanna jie treat all of us eat tidbits.

Haha.

After finish shopping Joanna and liang soon went home.

So we go jln payoh slack till 10+pm.

Home sweet home!

Shall not post so much niao.

Very tired ><

Bibi is sleeping like a pig beside me already.

Byeee~

Shag _l_

2009-12-11T01:37:00.002+08:00

Homed from work ><
Did closing alone nor!
Nnbcbbknnpcbzxcvbnm. _l_ !
Bibi came mrt to fetch me then we go have our supper.
Me - Egg fried rice..
Bibi - "Pai gu wang fan."
Our drinks of the day - F&N Grape.
Bibi eat as if he haven't eaten for days or maybe i should say years. -.-
But also good nar, won't waste food. HAHA, i never eat finish de all he eat:DD
Then home sweet home.
Took lots of photo but as you can see and please understand that i did closing all by myself.
I know i shouldn't keep talking about doing closing all alone,
BUT I REALLY DID CLOSING ALONE! WTFFFFFFFFF~
& I am tired.
So nights all. <3

Reluctant

2009-12-10T02:43:00.004+08:00

Sentosa trip canceled due to the wonderful weather.
Lunch at hougang mall foodcourt with bibi.
Then brought our stuffs and headed to bibi house.
Till 5plus went out to buy cigarette.
& then back to bibi house again.
Bibi father called and brought us go eat crab!:D
Salted egg crab and chilli crab.
I seriously hate eating crab because the shell is too hard.
Excuses. Actually i don't know how to eat or maybe i just suck at that. I use the "Kiap kiap'' but either the juice will splash onto my face or the shell will fly into my eyes. roar
So bibi help me with the crab.
Haha, thanks so muchhy~
Walked around to digest ourself then sat below bibi block to slack.
Till 11.45pm went back to coffee shop for supper.
Shared chicken chop with bibi.
Then accompany bibi drink.
Saw June precious ^^
She tabao-ing her supper.
Home sweet home @ 1+am.

Stop fretting over those stuffs okay?

No more off day ><
Shit that.

Photos will be up tomorrow or so.
Please bear with all this wordy post alrights!

Goodnight!

2009-12-09T03:31:00.002+08:00

Went HQ with Jasmine and Liting early in the morning today.
Went godma house after that.
Eat then fall asleep.
Actually wanna accompany jasmine go cut hair de. Sorry!
Cause whole day never sleep already ><
Woke up at 6+pm.
Eat then went out meet bibi le.
So happy to see him de ^^
Now he's sleeping like a pig.

I hope everything turns out for the better.
Although having th phobia but i will just give it one last try.
I don't know how long will this journey last, but i will keep my promises.

Going sentosa tomorrow!:D
YAYYNESS~
Fresh air, here i come!

Backing out?

2009-12-08T10:08:00.002+08:00

I brought myself to the edge once again.
Am i stepping into an hot soup or a future-will-be wonderful things?
Everyone talking senses into me, waking me up.
But is everything a bit just too late?
I thought i could just stand firm on the ground no matter what happens.
But those little tiny winny stuffs moved me.
Once again i am back into this situation.
12345678900987654321?
How many times? Countless of times.
Over the limit, crossing the line.
Dumb, fool or a retard?

ps; this is my currrent feeling. but please don't ask me who am i saying about. I don't wish to talk about it again.

_l_

2009-12-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

My throat is killing me~
Was trying to sleep earlier on because i really wanna kill myself with this fucking throat of mine.
But i failed~ _l_
Woke up and called mum to buy potato chips back. LOL.
She went to buy for me. ^^
Pringles, fruitella sweets and apple aloe vera drinks. I think mum really want to kill me.
Jane that sister of mine called me.
Surprised.
I think she actually wanna jio me out to ton but i told her i was sick.
Sorry sorry.
Next time okays!

After hanging call i tried to sleep again.
You know uh, if i get to sleep i won't be here posting blog. -.-
Give me sleeping pills and i will love die you.
Can't stand it ahhhh~

An apple a day, keeps the doctor away.

2009-12-07T17:18:00.002+08:00

Sick.

Took leave today. ><

Tomorrow still need report HQ. F.

Just a short post today.

Byezxcvbnm.